FARHANAAA(:

2012-01-12T00:48:00.000-08:00

the anticipation of waiting for my o levels results is over.

though i did not get what i aimed for ( under 10 points ) i am happy with my results :D

the only thing that i keep harping on is my combined humanities results which i wanted to get an A1! so disappointed for that.

but other than that I'm generally pleased with my results esp my Tamil which i got an A2 for.
wow unbelievable right? HAHAHA!

anws, as a reward for doing well and as a late birthday pressie, my parents are getting me an iPhone 4s! like finally!!!

i feel a little guilty about it cause they have to spend 700 bucks on it when it'll just be 500 if i wait for my contract ti be over.

but sorry mum and dad i just can't stand the state of my current phone.
I'll promise I'll take good care of the iPhone. oh oh I'm getting it this saturdayy. I REALLY HAVE NO PATIENCE TO WAIT.

I'm happy for soha that she passed her enlish and can move on to poly education. alhamdulliah.
as for sharm i was actually worried for her english too and im happy for the same reason as soha but i don't think she's happy with her results. but i hope that soha and sharm will find a good course.
i feel sad for lavan i even cried for her. i wished all of us could be cheering on that day but it didn't turn out that way. but i just hope that this doesn't bring her down and she chooses a good course and does well in the future.

i pray that all of us will choose a good course that will be good for our future :)

OK i need to shop for many things for poly.

stationary

2 pairs jeans ( Black and Faded blue )

poly bag

shoes ( i think I'll need about 3 pairs cause all my sole in my current shoes are broken so i have to get new ones )

CLOTHES! LOADS OF THEM!!!! (every time i see my wardrobe I'm like why the hell does my wardrobe have limited clothes. )

And so in order to get all this 5 important things i need monehhhh. And i need to work to get my cashhhh!!! seriously i need to work.

But i can't start unless all my friends come together with me to find one. But sharm is working temp and whenever i call soha she's out with her friends so it'll be not the right moment to discuss about job. As for lavan i don't think she can work and i feel is ver insensitive of me to ask her if she can at this moment of depression. :( so i really need to find a day that all of us are free so that we can put our focus in finding a good job that'll pay us enough to keep going shopping and save some money!!!

I really want to quickly work please!!! Because for now i can't hang out properly cause i have no cash.. so i can't watch movies .. i can't go shopping... we haven't even went to universal studios because of this issue.

i wish a high paying job that does not require Sunday work will just fall from the sky. and fasterr sharm finish your uncle's work so all of us can work alr :(

OK so that's it.

BYEE!

2012-01-01T06:27:00.000-08:00

I give up trying to make you love me the way you did. Its obviously not going to happen. You have new people in your life now who you give more importance to than me. I can't help feeling like im treated like a spare tyre. You only spend time with when you don't have the others with you.

of course I want things to go back to the way it was.
But its not going to happen unless they step down and you realize that im the one who will be always there.

But now, I will step down from your life. maybe that'll be one of my new year's resolution.

2011-12-28T07:10:00.000-08:00

k, I'm going to turn 17 in like approximately 45 Mins!

what have i done in my sixteen years of life? I HAVE NOOO IDEA.

what am i going to do from 17 years of age? Everything that i always wanted to accomplish before i am 17.

am i going to be able to do it or is it just another bullshit dream that never comes true? I AM ABSOLUTELY UNCERTAIN :'(

hope 17 is my lucky year!

2011-12-08T02:51:00.000-08:00

i think i've lost my smile. i am no more the positive cheerful person anymore.

i was looking through my older posts in my blog and even when i was sad and angry i lived by my motto, keep smiling always. (which i even forgot that that was my motto )

i was looking through my stuff and i saw this bag full of msgs written by my council mates during council camp 2009. and all of the msgs was about my smile. how my smile lighted the spirit of the room.. how i was so positive no matter what the situation was.

but now no matter how much i think i realized i don't have a sincere smile anymore. i want to be my old self back. i want my smile and my positiveness back.

i've lost it and i don't know where to even start to find it back.

2011-11-26T20:44:00.000-08:00

im soo pissed of w my sis
i was telling her that i wish i can do as well as my n levels for my o levels
and thn she say noo cnt
like wthhhh
im soo angryyyyyy
she say o levels is moreee harder than n levels
so you cnt get the same results.

ya lah ya lah

you are always better than me, smarter than me and ____________ than me ok.

but you out of all people don't have trust in me. who will?

thanks a lot.

i want you to rmbr this day.

and january 10 2012 be the verdict.

2011-11-13T00:42:00.000-08:00

sometimes i envy you.

you have so many people caring and loving you unlike me.

2011-11-13T00:40:00.000-08:00

you seem not one bit affected by it.

although im the one who's supposedly to have hurt you.

but why am i the one who's hurt?

2011-11-12T07:43:00.000-08:00

ok only one more paper to go and its mcq! :D

getting near to freedom.

I found a job.
I'm going to be a sales rep in the Singapore expo sales. its just for 5 days. and i get to earn 250 bucks!!

my sis helped me secure another job which is inter cruises ship job.
its just once or twice in a week.

i wanted to find another job that is like 5 days in a wk since inter cruises is just once a wk. but then i want time to enjoy too.

and i want to use this hols to really build back my stamina and speed.
#inspiredtorepresentsingaporeforseagamesinthenext2years
hehee :)
but I'm serious.
i want to work towards my goal.
so yea i want to focus on training than work.

cause money is not impt to me right now.

so i will try finding more of those temp jobs like the expo ones and not those compulsory 5 days in a wk for 2 mths kind.

and after i get my o levels results in Jan if i get A's i will become a tuition teacher as it is a flexible job so i can concentrate on studies and my passion (running!)

I've decided that i will go poly no matter what unless my points for L1R4 is above 15. then i will opt to go for JC because i don't want to go to a poly course which i don't like.

Ok i really want to do extremely well in my CCA and my studies. (like in a national level kind of well)

Hais but it seems much easier to accomplish in my dreams.

i hope my dreams will become reality. \(^.^)/

2011-11-04T03:07:00.000-07:00

OK done with ss. hope i did well.

hope all my inference for my sbq will be accepted

*fingers crossed*

just have 5 more days to suffer and im done! (ok i still have my mcq but i dun think i will feel pain studying for that).

so yay just five more days.

and after that im going to start working and indulge myself in things that i want.

currently i have been craving to get the ipad 2 (must have Internet in it duhhh!)

yup i really want it.

but i don't think my mum will let me buy as it quite expensive.

but i don't care im going to get it after my 1st months salary :DDD

can't wait!

still deciding if i want to get the black or the white one.

please mummy! must let me buyyyy!!!

so of course i've done my research and the ipad plan for m1 is that i have to pay $399 for the ipad and i have to pay $40 every month for the internet.

omg i really hope my wish of getting my ipad by the end of nov or mid of dec will come true!!!

2011-11-02T04:34:00.000-07:00

OK im halfway through finishing o levels.
I would say that most of the papers are doable but im giving away all my marks to careless mistakes. :'(

but still i hope i will do very well.
I need to.

i can't wait for o's to end.
im jealous of sharm cause she only have combined humanities paper left :(
hmph :P

while i have combined humans geog and mother tongue.
all require memorizing. -.-

but its ok.
just have to endure for 1 more week.
which i know will fly just like how 2 weeks have flew.

i told myself to give myself a break today.
i'll study tmr i promise ^^

i have to cause im having my social studies paper on friday.
I am banking on my humans and geog a lot.
I hope i can do it!!

:D

can't wait for o's to end.
k then off to tumblr.

bye!

2011-10-28T06:26:00.000-07:00

only 2 papers are over and i already feel tired.
i don't wana sit for anymore papers
i don't wana study anymore.

but i can't
i must push myself
its so easy to say it but so hard to do it.

i still have science, combined humans, geog and mt left.
yes still so many more to goo. :(

ok english was ok.
i was banking on my paper1 to pull my paper 2 marks up like how it always did.
but this time i think i will do better in my paper 2 instead and im banking on my paper 2 to pull my paper 1 marks up.
so hope i do very well in both papers.

maths: wanted to get an A1
but i think that it is impossible to get 90/100.
so i think im getting an A2

discussed my ans w my friends and i realized i got alot of careless mistakes.
so i thought i was going to get a B3 which i don't want :(
but when i checked my ans online and added together my marks i could get an A2 :D
so hopefully i Will get at least an A2. or if miracle can happen then an A1.

please allah help me.
help me achieve my targets.
help me make my parents proud.

help me prove to everyone (including myself) who think im not smart.
im not the smart one in the family ect.

please allah.

2011-10-20T20:26:00.000-07:00

Yesterday's practical was sooo bad.
It was so bad that I still wana cry thinking bout it

I have to really do extra extra well for my papers to pull up my marks.

And sohaaa pleas me alright.
your grandpa has gone somewhere better only.
He will be there watching you and making sure you will do well for you o's.

Please don't cry or be sad anymore! :(

2011-10-15T23:00:00.000-07:00

HA! So I was actually right in all the fights that we are having recently.
Your friends are more important then your family.
or should i same same importance -.-

i can't believe you can rank your family and friends with the same importance.
i mean come on.
your family is the one that has been always there for you since you were born.
not your friends.

i really don't know what's wrong with you.
to me you are always rank no. one in my life then only followed by my friends although it might be just by a small %.
but you still win by a bit.

but for me i have been replaced. ( or shld i say squeezed )
you have squeezed you friend in together with me in the rank one.
i told you i have been replaced and you always say noooooo,think whatever you want.

so this is what you mean by noooooo. you are not replaced.
so what you meant was i am squeezed by you friend

whatever you might as well kick me off and put me last or not even one of the important one at all.

famILY
friEND
BoyfriEND.

k, i know it might be lame for you.
but its a fact.

i always thought you were the bestest sister in the world.
but looks like I'm wrong.
you are just the same.
or maybe even worst.

i am sure the other sisters will priorities their little sister at the main importance before their friends.

give you a scene.

Me and GEE are drowning.
I bet if you were to answer this question you will be like shit who to save.

but let me tell you this.
GEE's sister will be already plunging to help Gee while you are thinking who to save.

whatever.
it's your life
your choice.

i thought you were different.
i thought you were the only one who understood me and loved me the most.
but i guess I'm wrong.

you love another person as equally as you love me.
and I'll tell you straight of course i am jealous and hurt.

but its not going to change anything.
I'll still be not loved by anyone the most :(

2011-10-10T04:58:00.000-07:00

WHAT THE FUCKEDEE FUCK FUCK!

AGAIN IM RECEIVING THIS SHIT FROM YOU GUYS.

FROM MY OWN PARENTS.

WHY DONT YOU GUYS BELIEVE IN ME?

JUST BECAUSE OF THE ONE TIME I LET YOU DOWN.

I KNOW THAT IM THE STUPID ONE

AND THE ONLY ONE YOU HAVE HOPE ON IS ALWAYS MY SISTER.

IM SO FRUSTRATED.

THAT YOU GUYS EXPECT SO LOW OF ME.

THAT YOU GUYS DONT EVEN SET ANY HIGH EXPECTATION BECAUSE YOU THINK I WONT REACH IT.

IT JUST HURTS WHEN I TELL MY MUM THAT I WANA GET A FOR MY MAYHS AND SHE'S LIKE AT LEAST YOU PASS ALREADY.

I MEAN C'MON I EXPECT LIKE THEN U MUST WORK HARD FOR IT. LIKE THOSE KIND OF RESPONSE AND NOT AT LEAST YOU PASSED YOUR MATHS.

AND MY DAD, TODAY HE REALLY FUCKING HURT ME.

HE CALLED ME SLOW.(AS IN NOT PHYSICALLY SLOW LIKE MENTALLY LIKE STUDIES WISE)

AND I WAS LIKE IM NOT SLOW.

AND THEN HE SACARSTICALLY SAID OUH YOU EXPRESS STREAM AH.

THEN HE SAID PASS YOUR O'S THEN ONLY GO EXPRESS .

THEN I WAS LIKE NOO I DO WELL IN MY O'S ILL GO POLY JUST LIKE MY SIS OR EVEN JC.

AND HE JUST LAUGHED AT ME.

I CANT BELIEVE MY OWN DAD WLD DO TT.

IM SOO FUCKING HURT.

IT MAKES ME THINK LIKE I THINK THEY ARE RIGHT

AFTER ALL I AM THE STUPID ONE RIGHT? :(

2011-10-02T06:08:00.000-07:00

JUST

2011-10-02T05:46:00.000-07:00

OK, i know i said i am letting my blog rot right?
but i can't take it.

( be prepared this is yet another posts about studies -.-
cause my life is revolving around only studies right now )

OK, so i was just reading through my older posts and i realised that although i had a major exam last year ( n levels ), i had a life.
i mean not completely a life, but at least a little.

at least i had time to go out, to blog , etc.
and i know that i was studying.

but this year, i have no life, i have no time to blog, i feel like I'm wasting every minute of my life doing nothing.

I'm really scared for my o's but i FEEL like I'm not doing anything about it.
although I'm studying, why do i feel like i did nothing at all for the day.

and why is it that last year i could have time for leisure and yet can accomplish my study goals for the day but this year i don't even have leisure time and i can't even study much.

i really don't understand.
all i want to do is just sleep.

and worst of all o's hasn't even started but I'm already thinking of what i want to do after it.
this is really bad cause it makes me not wanna study even more and just makes me want to rest and enjoy.

i know everyone is saying that suffer now enjoy later, instead of enjoy now suffer later. but it is really difficult to do that.

i know I'm not supposed to be blaming anything or anyone but myself, but i actually think that is because of the long remedial hours that i cannot study with quality and quantity. i wish that they would just cancel all the remedial and let us study.

they've already ruined my idea of studying a lot during the study break by removing the study break for us. ( unfair school system )

arghhh, i wish that the teachers will just trust us and give us the study break or at least to those who wants it.

i mean is our choice, we know what's best for us .
for me i know i am more productive at home.

i feel like I'm wasting precious time in school.

i just want to study.
i need to study.
and i need to so well for my o's.
this is where it really matters.

2011-02-25T04:14:00.000-08:00

Ok, i'm going to let my blog rot for about 10 months until o level exams finishes.
I really want to update, but i really cannot find the time and there's nothing really special for me to update since my life is all about school = studies , family and friends = who are always there for me & CCA(x country / track & field )= 1/2 my time spent .. so it's a daily same routine that i'm going through everyday. so yeah!

so i have no choice but to come to a point to let my blog rot ):

so till nextime, goodbye for now ...

2010-12-23T06:15:00.000-08:00

ok, so i got to replace my old stuff.

Hopefully mum and dad agree to this.
Dad is easy to get approval but mum is the hard one.

Didn't want to replace this.

But it got spoiled during the Jurassic rapid adventure ride in universal studios.

the water entered my ipod.

and now my ipod is not working anymore.

so i got to replace it.

so i'm going to buy the 4G version.

price : $229 (8GB)

now for my phone.

i got to replace it cause i've been having my phone for 2 years now.

so i want to get a new phone.

having my eyes Nokia x5-01 (:

buying either black or pink.

applying for Internet too in my phone! (:

price of phone : $48 in M1

Internet sub: $38 - free 100 min outgoing call

- free incoming calls

- 500 free sms

-of course access to Internet

( this is starhub's plan, i'm not sure bout m1's, but shld be arnd the same! )

now for the camera.

i don't care bout camera's actually.

but my parents say they want to replace it.

cause it to put in my term, it sucks.

it doesn't want to take good pictures anymore.

so yea want to replace it to canon or sony. but most prob canon.

price : $399

told mum, bout my phone and i pod.

she said might as well buy an i phone.

but i don't want an i phone.

is so cliche!

every other person in the mrt is having it.

and beside i find it quite expensive

as compared to my phone which is just $48.

so yea!
hope to get these things asap!

2010-12-22T23:40:00.000-08:00

ok universal studios was erm , ok only.

actually frankly speaking it was disappointing.

maybe because i had a lot of hopes and imaginations on how fun it will be..

and it turned out to be blehhh!!

so at 1st we were camwhoring happy that we were finally here!!

then when we went to the ticketing booth to purchase our tickets,

the person said that the tickets were sold out.

the stocks Will only arrive at jan 2 or smth.

that was the 1st hope crasher of the day.

then we were just roaming arnd asking other people bout the ticket availability

and this person out of nowhere came and asked ask if we were looking for tickets.

and she said she had tickets for four.

and then my dad was happily taking out his wallet wanting to buy the tickets.

all of us were happy actually.

then my mum asked the person who is she and all.

then she said 'aiyah, i'm just a tour agent like that la',

so that was suspicious.

anws, we just bought the tickets and just told ourselves that we didn't do anything wrong,

we did buy the tickets for $66 bucks each what anws.

so, miracle no.1 :D

so we went in.

so when we 1st went in,
kung fu panda was standing there, and people were taking pictures.
so we went to queue too.
and when it was our turn,
they say lunch break or smth,
next time is 2.30.
great another hope crasher!

then we saw this Frankenstein.
so we queued up too.
then it was our turn.
and then they say last one to the other ppl.

so there we go.
miracle no.2 !!

anws. so we went on to the rides.

and the "best" part was that, we had to wait 1 hour plus for an one min ride!

the rides ended super fast man.

and me and my sis were like,

that's it.

this is stupid.

this sucks.

there were already limited rides,

and most of the rides were not opened.

-.-

2010-12-18T00:52:00.000-08:00

ok n level results was out yesterday..

even though i didn't get what i aimed for,

i was satisfied with the results i got :D

i got 9 points!! :DDD

maybe it was because i was one of the top students in css..

that really made me super happy and made my parents proud.

For the 1st time i really made my parents proud!
I remember my PSLE results,

how disappointed my parents faces were..

and from then on

it became a wake up call for me.

i never wanted that day to repeat again!

even until today, i still regret how i did for my PSLE and wished that i could turn back time!

And yesterday, i really made them proud of me.

but even though they were proud they still said.. this is nth.. the real thing is ur o level..

u must work hard for it.

then that struck me!
is this really nth

thats's why i did well??

what if in my o levels i repeat what happened in my PSLE!
but no matter what i won't give space for that to happen.

i want to make my parents proud again.
like how i did yesterday!

My friends did very well too!

I am very proud of them!!

So so proud, that it adds to my happiness!!

Thank allah!! they did well too and made their parents proud!!

Khamrun got 11 points!! :D

Lavan got 12 points!! :D

Gilda got 19 points!! :D .. i am so glad that she made it!!

( so sad don't have picture of lavan's and gilda's cert ): )

anws, now is sharm!!

i know she passed!!

but hopefully she got a good results which she and her parents are proud of..

thats's all!

it has been a good day for all of my close ones!!

thank you so much allah!

thanks for helping me and all of us!
THANK UU SO MUCH ALLAH!!!!

i can't express how grateful i am to allah.

i really am very grateful!!

2010-12-15T04:15:00.000-08:00

WOAH! It's been ages since i've blogged.
But i got a reason for that.
Is cause i've had nothing to blog about!

Anws, now that i have something to blog about.
MY N LEVEL RESULTS IS COMING OUT THIS FRIDAY!!
THIS FRIDAYY!!
AHHHHH FREAK OUTTT!!!
Hopefully i will get what i want!

2010-11-01T05:07:00.000-07:00

I think that guys are very friendly people.
They can just click with people very fast.

anws, glad that i'm starting to open up and be myself more to people whom i'm not very close with.
and by being myself i'm actually being closer to them every minute . (:

i'm going to thin my hair and cut my fringe tmr.
i'm scared cause i love my hair currently right now.
but i also want to thin my hair and cut my fringe.

i'm just going to take the risk and do it.
i hope it turns out nice.

(:

ok that's all.
bye!

2010-10-30T23:54:00.000-07:00

AHHHHHHH!

My facebook have no more privacy at all!
i have relatives after relatives adding me.

i'm a type who don't wish to add anyone who is related to me.

as i don't want them to see and know what i'm doing.

HOW?

How do i delete them from my friend list?
what if they know that i deleted them ):

should i start a new FB account?
but that is too much hassle
i've to add everyone again!

AHHHHH!
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DOOOO!
):

MY PRIVACY IS LOST!

2010-10-29T05:44:00.000-07:00

Ok, today I'm going to be thick skinned and talk about myself. How i have groomed myself to be better physically. Actually i didn't groom myself at all. I just decided to grow my hair and i think it is a good idea. Cause growing my hair is actually taming the 'toings' down and is just becoming a waves or curls which satisfies me. I can't wait for my hair to grow even longer. GO HAIR.. YOU CAN DO IT! (:

This is what i meant my 'toings'... OMG THIS IS FREAKING UGLY MAN! This is the reason why i hated my hair last time!

But now see, i think the 'toings' have tamed down a lot and i think that the reason for this is because my hair has grown. (:

This was the length of my hair of my hair before. And how "tamed" it was. OMG JUST LOOK AT THE UGLY CURLS MAN!

& look at my hair now (: (: (:

it has grown and is just waving down instead if going every directions. I'm glad those days of bad hair days are over! PLEASE HAIR DON'T GO BACK TO THE PAST!! ):

EWWW! LOOK AT THAT SNAKE HAIR... GOSH I REALLY HATED MY HAIR LAST TIME!

& YAY! I LOVE MY HAIR NOW! (:
THAT'S ALL I CAN;T WAIT FOR MY HAIR TO GROW GROW GROW!! (:

2010-10-17T23:04:00.000-07:00

This time, I'm really going to win something big for myself
It's going to be last year next year as a css cross country runner and i really want to make my sch , my family, my friends and myself proud.

I'm not going to be lazy anymore.
I'm going to start training from today.

I'm going to start off easy for myself 1st cause i have not been doing competitive training for quite sometime already.
so I'm going to work really hard
train almost everyday
and achieve my running goals!

I'm off to training soon! :D

2010-10-10T07:02:00.000-07:00

if you like a girl;
you should tell her;
so she's not confued bout' the msgs you're sending.

2010-10-05T04:14:00.001-07:00

I CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMORE!!! I SERIOUSLY NEED SOMEONE TO PUSH ME. CAUSE RIGHT NOW I'M SICK & TIRED F STUDYING ALREADY! AND TO ADD TO MY PAIN I STILL HAVE 3 MORE PAPERS.! - GEOG ( x2 ) !!! & maths paper 2

I SERIOUSLY NEED INSPIRATION!!

GOSH I'M GOING CRAZIEEEEEEEEEEE!!! D:

2010-09-30T03:25:00.000-07:00

NO ONE IN THIS WORLD UNDERSTANDS ME!

This tuition fees is really affecting me.

i really want to do well in my N levels

i'm really stressed i really got to do the very very best!

told my mom bout the tuition fees

got a hell load of scolding in my face

she was saying things like u think money grows on trees and such.

i told my mummy but i want to get A's

and she replied let's see.

i was so fucking hurt right at that moment.

i so want to fucking prove my mum that i can get A's

the attitude that my mum showed me today really affects me!

i have no more mood to study now.

all i want to do is cry

but my stupid heart is so strong that it doesn't allow the tears to flow out

now all the tears are stuck inside

i think this feeling is even worst than crying.

i wish i can just cry and get over it.

): ): ):

2010-09-18T20:37:00.000-07:00

OK, yesterday was my cousin brother's, AJ's birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AJ!!!

so it was his birthday celebration + my aunt's hari raya open house at the same time!
It was so funn
i had a blast!!! ^^

Started camwhoring at home!!

see anything different bout my hair?? haha!!!

twins!

yes i straighntened it!

only my hair...

not my fringe

and i <3>

the birthday celebration is on!

AJ's cake before...

& after! ):

the birthday boy!!

waiting eagerly to cut his cake!

finally time to eat! LOL!

All the cute couples!

I can't see!! D:

my sis says he's my couple cause his wearing white too -.- but my sis & i also think tt he kinda likes me too from the way he acts. but pfft! idc!

time to open pressie!!

he got a bear which he abandoned....

for this robot!!

many many more pressie...

another one of my cuz playing with AJ' pressie

since the bear was abandoned my sis and i decided to play with it!

poor abanodoned bear!!

thats all! this was one of the longest post ever!!

2010-09-10T23:12:00.000-07:00

Time changes and people change too.

Some people grow
Some people shrink
Some just become matured
Some forgets others

AND SOME PEOPLE

just grow prettier :D
and some ( me ) turns ugly.

I have to get used to the fact that

I am not noticed anymore
I don't stand out anymore

THAT I'M JUST UGLY

& no matter how much i fix my hair or whatsoever

I'M JUST UGLY & THAT'S THE FACT!

NOW, TIME HAS CHANGE;

AND YOU HAVE CHANGED INTO A YOUNG BEAUTIFUL WOMAN

AND NOW...

THE SPOTLIGHT IS ON YOU (:

AND ME??

I JUST HAVE TO CHANGE MY FUCKED UP SCREWED FUCKING HAIR!!!

I DON'T WANT TO REBORN IT!
I DON'T WANT TO PERM IT!
I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH IT!
I WANT IT TO BE NATURAL NOT DONE WITH SOME CHEMICALS!
I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT I WANT!!

2010-09-04T01:30:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SOHAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!
ENJOY YOUR SWEET SIXTEEN NO MATTER WHAT KAYS!

HAVE A BLAST!!
(:

2010-09-02T20:37:00.000-07:00

Yes, attitude is everything. Especially now when my N levels is just 3 days away!

And what attitude do i have?? A lazy one!

I am so lazy to do anything. Every time i touch my notes i get distracted and i start to procrastinate.

Another reason is because i think i need food to study. I'm too drained out that all i want to do is to sleep. But my dad scolded me for thinking that fasting is the cause of why i am not studying, and i think i deserve the scolding. I think what is the main cause is my attitude and mind set. I've got to change this two and I'll be back on track.

Okay,

Things I've done so far:

1. SS Chap 2

2.SS Chap 3

3.SS Chap 4

Things I've still got to do:

1. SS Chap 5

2.SS Chap 6/2 (globalization)

3. Tamil paper 1

4. Tamil paper 2

5. Memorize Tamil phrases & formats

6. Memorize Tamil paper 2 phrases

7. English

You see, there are more things undone than done. And what am i doing??!! NOTHING!!!

AHHH I'm going crazy man!!! I'm so tired off studying when my study journey is just starting.

I think is because of my prelims which i studied hard that i don't feeling like studying now.

Anyways,

Things I've got to do today:

1. Revision of SS from Chap 2-4

2. Tamil paper 1

That's all! But I'm not even starting on one yet!! And time is ticking.

oh oh

3. CLEAN THE HOUSE!! ( eg; sweep the floor, fold clothes etc. )

cleaning the house already will take up all the food that is in my stomach

how am i going to study then??

i just have to settle it somehow!

FOCUS IS THE KEY!!!

I'm always having negative thoughts. Every time I think of N levels i feel like crying.

I''m weird! Normally if people think about N level they will be scared of smth like that but i, i feel like crying??!!!

i just want next week to be over as quickly as possible at the same time i want more time to study!!

whatever it is time will not stop for anyone and it is up to me to use whatever time i have well.

Time is precious!!

come on farhana!! Its just one more lap that you've got to run! Don't give up now!! Push yourself even more harder!!

2010-08-25T05:40:00.000-07:00

I've know this for a very long time ready that flexibility and my running style is the key to really improving my run & to win competitions

thanks to Pris! i know some ways to work on my flexibility! THANK YOU SO MUCH PRIS! (:

Now all i have to do is to work on my running style

But i think i have settled that somehow ready by watching the YOG athletics.

Now all I've got to do to succeed is to just PUSH MYSELF

once I've got the push i think i can excel

I've gotta push myself just the extra one more mile in my studies before the N levels

I really want to do it but homework is taking more than half my time

HOMEWORK REALLY PISSES ME OFF!!!

But its all in my mind & my own time management!

c'mon farhana! you can do this

just push yourself one more extra mile for your studies

and then push hard for your training after tt

you can do this!! (:

2010-08-23T07:12:00.000-07:00

2010-07-14T03:15:00.000-07:00

Things i gotta do today:

1. Tamil letter ( 7-8)
2. maths (8.30-9)
3. geek specs (9+ till 10??)

Anyways;

things happened today.
Sharm told me that Morgan wants my no.

there's no wayy that i'm going to give him my no.
but i don't mind adding him on facebook
i mean he has to add me lahh like DUH

but the thing is that he has added me before
but i didn't accept him then cause i didn't know who is he
but now that i know it's sharm's, si hui's and biri's friend, i really don't mind adding him

but i don't think there's any chance of him adding me again
and i really don't want him to know that i want him to add me or what
it's not that i like him or something but if he likes me maybe he can start off in facebook 1st before no. i mean asking my no. isn't it too fast??

i'm really confused on what to do.
i mean if i guy still talks about a girl who he talked about last time who ignored him, means he still likes me right??

umm i'm really not sure.
i'm really dumb when it comes to romance and love
and i'll admit it
i can be played with very easily like how i was played with last time.

ahh i'm just waiting for my sis
for advice

i hope soha, sharm, lavan if you guys read this i hope you'll give me you're opinion

ps: sharm if you're reading this i don't want him to know that i want him to add me on facebook again. but you can tell him to add me again though, you know in like your point of view like that. but don't say that i say can already or anything related to me or my feelings or anything i said. i trust that you would know how to put words in a proper way!

2010-07-10T07:05:00.000-07:00

i know i was really excited bout buying flat iron and hair curler

but I'm afraid, afraid that I'll damage my hair cause of the heat!

they say to prevent this you must buy a proper flat iron & curler but proper ones will be expensive. Never mind i shall just go with mummy, mummy knows the best kind to buy!

so all i have to do know is SAVE! SAVE! SAVE!!!

PS: i really like the flat iron picture which i picked out; i wish mine will look like that!

2010-07-09T05:45:00.000-07:00

GOOD NEWS:

- went for a run today and i am still in good shape(:

-my mummy let me by hair straightener + curler :3

-we're going to universal studio next week!! :DD

BAD NEWS:

- mummy never let me alter my skirt ):

-Feel guilty to go to universal studio cause of my prelims )):

-must save up 25% of the hair straightener+curler, another 25% will be from my sis & 50% for my mum.

-scared that not all the rides will be open.

2010-07-03T21:59:00.000-07:00

I took a quiz & i think is soo true! my sis said so too(:

Social Realist

Social Realists are popular persons full of energy. They are reliable, well organized and helpful. Traditional values are important to them. Founding a family also plays a central role in their life. Social Realists have a marked social streak. They are always ready to listen to the worries and problems of others and spare no effort when they are asked for help. With empathy and understanding, they can sense what other people need. Social Realists are always willing to highly regard the strong points of the other person and to excuse that person’s weaknesses. They are the most sociable of all personality types. Social contacts are very important to them.

Social Realists find it very difficult to cope with conflicts and criticism - harmony is their elixir of life. Acknowledgement and esteem are very important to this type. Differentiation on the other hand is not necessarily one of their strong points. At work and in partnerships, they are loyal, committed and always there when needed. They find it easy to make friends due to their open, warm manner and they have a large circle of friends. In love, they are faithful and attentive and care for their partners with a great deal of imagination and sensitivity. Social Realists show their feelings openly and honestly. Should a relationship break up, they tend to blame themselves. That is why they find it very difficult to end a partnership even if it has not fulfilled their requirements for some time.
→ Get career advice for the Social Realist

Social Realists are more conservative types. They have a set system of values and rules which is orientated to the prevailing traditions. They prefer clear, structured surroundings and work processes; they find too much change und unrest unpleasant. Their strong points are carefulness and reliability and not so much flexibility and spontaneity. Social Realists are open-minded towards anything new only to a limited extent. But, should one be looking for someone to fulfil a task reliably and exactly, they are the right persons.
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Adjectives which describe your type: extroverted, practical, sentimental, planning, emotional, temperamental, energetic, tradition-conscious, loyal, helpful, devoted, reliable, caring, objective, thorough, organised, warm-hearted, open, friendly, sociable, chummy, obliging, self-sacrificing, public-spirited, sensitive, kind, demanding

Social Realist: Career

The Social Realist is the most social among all personality types. For you, it is essential to choose a profession where you can deal with as many people as possible. You recharge your batteries with the help of people contact and the personal exchanges needed for your very special talents to unfold. You are the prototype of the caring person in the positive sense, because you love to act on behalf of others and care for them. If you have the impression that there is a way to contribute by improving the quality of their life, it satisfies you more than anything.

For your type, the feeling to be needed, loved, and appreciated is more than vitally necessary. Therefore, working in seclusion is not for you. It is just too much counter to your extroverted nature, and your need for interpersonal interaction.You have the best ideas during dialogues with others, as they stimulate your creativity. Instead of developing abstract aid projects with the help of a drawing board, you prefer to engage yourself on the frontlines with person to person contact. For you, it is important to see the results of your work so you can go home feeling that you (again) made the world a better place - at least a bit.

You are a born team player. You are open and communicative, easily integrating yourself into group hierarchies. For your personality type, harmony is the keyword in your personal, as well as in your professional life. Since conflicts and power struggles seriously stress you making it difficult for you to attend to your tasks, you should put your emphasis on working in a stress free, respectful, and affectionate environment. Working environments continuously affected by tough infighting, and where competitive conflicts are intense represent too great a strain.

When choosing your job, it is important to make sure that your environment is characterized by chances for harmonious togetherness. Your warmth, your excellent empathy, and your readiness to help see to it that groups generally accept you quickly, and that you become an appreciated contact person for all problems and miseries of others. Because you tend to listen, comfort, and encourage, you are always the first to hear about your colleagues’ professional and private worries. Don’t overdo it. First of all, you are very sensitive taking their problems too much to heart, and secondly, is important that your work does not suffer from your social engagements.

Social Realist: Love

No other type is as loving, attentive, and committed a partner as you. Many authors describe your type as the most personable and endearing of all: caring, sensitive, and always making sure that others are comfortable in your presence. For you, investing a lot in your relationship, and totally committing yourself to another person goes without saying. You enjoy assuming responsibilities, and that applies to your partnership, as well. When you encounter hic-ups in your relationship, the first things you look for are ways to change yourself.

You were born with the need to take care of the person you love most - to the best of your ability - and to do everything to make him/her comfortable. You create a comfortable home with the feeling of security and intimacy for both of you. To please and surprise your partner, you have an astounding sense for sharing small and frequent signs of your love. Your antenna for his/her needs is almost eerie, and sometimes you almost trip over yourself with eagerness when it is important to you to meet his/her needs. In the long run, your own needs are frequently neglected when you have a partner who prefers taking over, or who does not care for you as sensitively as you care for him/her.

Any partner is going to be overwhelmed by your sensitive and exuberant nature. Because you often like to talk about things close to your heart you are not stingy with compliments and assurances of your love. You are the most emotional and passionate of the Realists. The power of your feelings often carries you away. With you, this is not just lip service because you also prove your love with deeds. Whoever is with you can always rely on you. Your fidelity and loyalty toward your partner are extraordinary and unshakeable. Comparative studies have often indicated that Social Realists lead the list of the sixteen types in the durations of their marriages. For you, a relationship represents a life-long obligation; you don’t enter into it lightly and expect stability and reliability from your partner, as well. If you are disappointed, it hurts you even more than any other of the personality types.

2010-06-26T06:17:00.000-07:00

OK, went shopping

Bought several things.

1. shoes;

i more than love my shoes. i can't express how much i love my new shoes!! :D

2. undergarments;

happy that i finally replaced my worn out undergarments with new once & I'm damn happy that i finally got a sports top! :)

3. clothes;

OK only. could have shopped more & gotten better clothes. -.-

4. my school bag;

OK, honestly speaking I'm not really satisfied with the bag i bought. At 1st i loved it but i told my mummy lets look around 1st but my mind is set on this. so after we looked around the one that i chose was the best. so we went back to the shop & the bag i chose was sold ready and there was no more stock left. i was super duper disappointed. so i have no other option but to choose another design if not i would have confirm be slapped by my mummy on the spot & i would end up with no bag at all. so i bought this bag not full hearted. ):

2010-06-14T22:50:00.000-07:00

right now i think that only people who can understand me are my friends;

not my mom, not my dad, not even my sis

MOM: All I'm doing to keep her happy is working hard. Working hard in my studies, working hard in my house chores, working hard in maintaining a good attitude and a good relationship. Even if i did this non stop and perfectly for 10 yrs and one day i didn't... we will end up with a major fight. And I've experienced the fight before and it lasted for around 3 days. People might think is just 3 days. But the 3 days were like hell to me. It was as if i didn't have any mom anymore. This is not call understanding is it? she didn't understand how i felt.

DAD: All his doing is to nag at me to work hard. Is really annoying when i did all the things and when i just don't do it for 1 day he starts saying that i never do anything and that I'm always lazy. why don't you help your sis. And when i do things he laughs. He thinks that I'm forced to do it... that i won't do it on my own accord. For him IS ALWAYS MY SIS WHO IS THE BEST. though for my parents, her attitude is getting off hand, is always my sis whose better than me for him ( at least this is what he makes me infer ). for eg. like just now the house chores thing i mentioned, he always things I'm lazy and that i don't help my sis but he really doesn't see that i do many things too. another eg is whenever i do badly for my exams is me but when i do good he always tells that is thanks to your sis. i mean ya my sis did help and he can say that but at least he can say another line of you worked hard too keep it up or smth, but noooo he stops there & i feel so sad that it's also mostly my effort and he doesn't see it.

SIS: WOW!! I've got many many things to tell bout her!! but I'm not going too.I'm just going to tell the recent one cause the past has already been forgotten by my stm brain (: Today we fought. Over what? Over house chores!! this house chores thing is really killing me!!! I wasn't doing it today cause i thought that my sis is at home and she can help out but i guess i was wrong! Next time I'd rather do it myself even if my sis is at home or not rather than causing unnecessary stress and havoc. ARGHHHH!! and another thing that really deeply hurt me was that when we fought she said that nobody understands her at all even me. Like wth right?? how am I supposed to understand her when she's not even sharing with me anything anymore. Like she understands me -_- We are now not even close anymore. She has to set her priorities straight 1st then she can be close to me and our family. Last time we were sisters, then we became good friends i think now the level has drop to just being friends ( what i feel). I hope the level doesn't drop any further.

OF COURSE THE ARE A ZILLION THINGS TO SHARE IF I HAVE TO SAY THE GOOD TIMES I HAVE WITH MY FAMILY!!! I'm just angry and sad so i need to drop this feeling somewhere so I'm dropping in my blog. But for people reading this I hope you don't get the wrong idea of my family. They are GREAT :D

Anyways Soha, Lavania and Sharm;

If you have read this, sorry but don't call me I don't wanna talk on the phone. Hehee! But we can meet up or msg or msn you know those kind of communication mode not phone.HEHEHEEHEEE!!!
AND TO SHARM SORRY FOR NOT ANSWERING YOUR CALL TODAY. DON'T FEEL LIKE TALKING ON PHONE BUT CAN MSG, MEET ect. I PROMISE TO CALL YOU BACK SOON. BUT JUST NOT TODAY!! To Soha and Lavan thanks for still keeping in touch with me and not through phone. heee. LOVE ALL OF YOU GUYS(: Thanks for always being there for me and i hope we'll be on good terms forever and no more fights. ONCE IS ENOUGH(:

one more thing I've gotta blog about;

HIM: I don't know what's going on with him, but just when I'm trying to get over him his talking to me again. I just have no space in my heart to entertain you and for you to play with me and my feelings again so Can you just shoo! Don't come back to my life!! I'm just in the process of erasing you man!! ARGHH!!

tough life!

2010-06-02T06:01:00.000-07:00

TODAY MY MUMMY BOUGHT ME THIS SHE ASKED ME TO TRY IT TO SEE IF MY PIMPLES COULD REDUCE

SO I JUST APPLIED IT ON MY FACE JUST NOW AND MY FACE TURNED LIKE THIS

THE CREAM HAS HARDENED AND IT LOOK LIKE A FACIAL MASK
IT FEELS SO UNCOMFORTABLE AT THE SAME TIME IT FEELS NICE AS IT FEELS AS IF I'M IN A SPA (:

I CAN ONLY WASH IT OFF AFTER 15 MINUTES WHICH IS AT 9.10
3 MORE MINUTES TO GO!!!

HOPEFULLY MY PIMPLES ARE GONE SOON!!!

2010-05-20T06:16:00.000-07:00

WAITING FOR THE LAST 2 EPII OF THIS
THEY SEEM TO TAKE FOR AGES TO UPLOAD THE LAST 2 EPISODES
HOPEFULLY IT'S UPLOADED BY TMR!!
LEE MIN HOO (:

PS: GOT M Y MUMMY ADDICTED TO THIS TOO!! [:

2010-05-16T03:16:00.000-07:00

someone help me!!

i'm really confused now

i feel like my head gonna explode

and my heart ...

i just don't know

i hope all this would just stop

i wish time will allow me to sort things through

but the thing is i don't know how

or what to do any more

2010-05-13T23:05:00.000-07:00

I LOVE YOU GUYS NO MATTER WHAT!!

but i just feel sad that i can't really express what i feel to you guys
everytime i say something i'm backfired with words

so might as well i don't say anything

i'm just sad that such a small problem have changed my impression of you
and i'm sure i had of you too

but i'm sure it will be replaced by our good times again

i just hope that next time if you got smth to say bout me you won't say it to anyone else but me
1st

please just do that next time

it's the first time i ever fought
and i don't think it went so well cause i don't know how to fight

but if you ask me to laugh i can laugh and laugh all the way
heheheee

anyways back to my point
half of my heart is telling me to end our friendship but half of it says that i need you

i really don't know which want to follow

if i follow the 1st one i might end up losing such a good friend like you
but if i follow the second one i might end up being hurt because of u just like how i was today over a very small issue

i j ust want you to think bout the times on how much i heled you before and then you should say that you're hurt

i have my reasons too and you can't always have things the way you want it to be
in that way every slightest things will hurt you

you should learn how to go with the flow~~~

2010-05-13T02:12:00.000-07:00

many things happened today

ok not really many but a couple

i got back my results

hmm not so bad i guess

all B3's and 4's

what was the worst thing that happen today was that my best friend was giving me cold shoulder for something i don't know why

and she really hurt me from the actions that she did

and no matter how i made her upset for smth i don't know why she shouln't have done what she did

maybe she had a good intention by this but i didn't get the good intention though

hias

is it really hard to find someone to trust to be faithful to you someone who don't keep secrets from you and someone to understand you this days??

i just realized it is

and i was a fool to trust you so much

just for you to kind off talk behind my back

what kind of friends have i gotten??

i feel like a lost child right now

mummyyyy this is when i really need you

but it's just so hard to explain how i feel to anyone this days !!

2010-05-11T19:21:00.000-07:00

FREEEEEEDOOOOMMMMM AT LAST

exams are over!
but my freedom is going to last for only a short while

cause i know 110% that i'm not going to do well in this exam!

oh well there goes my universal studio and my june holidays! ): ): ):

whatever it's now time t o enjoy
and play as much as i can!!

yayayayayayayayayayay!!

:DD

byee!

ps: personal taste/preference here i cooomeeee!! (=

2010-05-02T04:10:00.000-07:00

FUCK

no matter what I'm always a loser
cause I've always gotta resort to you for help

you won and I loss as usual
and it's all cause you are smarter than me

why can't you just be nice and teach me when I asked you to
instead you just screamed your heads off
and I really don't understand why

and you expect me to learn once you've scream and hurt me
you really made me feel so low at that point
so dumb
so useless
like I could have no even existed on earth

and to add on to this
there was no one
NO ONE at all to see me in pain
crying silently

no one was there to comfort me when I needed them the most
call yourself family.

this is called family

this few days have been really terrible for me
and I don't know why god have been making me cry for the past few days

I just hope that all this will stop
and I'll be happy again

and as for you
I hope that you realize that you've hurt me ALOT

I never thought that you out of all people wld do this to me
and I was stupid enough to compliment you to all the ppl I know

guess all that was a lie huh
I dunno if this is your true colours
or is it just you've change

but whatever it is i've had enough of this crap
I just want things to be nice and happy for both of us.

be it happiness for you is to make me more independent
and try to do things on my own

or happiness for me that I get to learn more things and tips when i'm with you
but I just learnt that it does not come easy to get those
it comes with a lot of begging waiting and crying

I just wish I was not born dependent on you
but I am
and I know nothing can change that

2010-04-30T05:20:00.000-07:00

opps
i should not be feeling this way

again the same thing can happen
i'm in love again

i really don't like this attitude of mine
i fall for every slightest move i guy makes at me

and i can't believe the same old cycle is going to repeat again
i'm back to hoping

hoping that this time it will have a better ending
a happy ending for me and him

once again
i'm ending this blog post too
saying that i'm officially in love
AGAIN!! -__-

2010-04-20T08:40:00.000-07:00

C'mon hair

GROW!! GROW!!

i want my hair to grow till this length

how long will it take??

for now my hair is around this length:

(click on the pic to view it larger)

2010-04-19T05:18:00.000-07:00

imagine the guy that u like

says to you that he wants to tell you smth and he says that he's going on with this girl!

how would u feel

and the guy behaves with u in a way that's so obvious he likes u

and he just breaks your heart like that

those kind of guys are major jerks

and i met and loved a major jerk

i can't believe i was so stupid to love a guy like him

i just wish everything will be alright

and it will be fine fast!!

2010-04-12T05:14:00.001-07:00

i cut my hair

but there is not much difference!

yup

the only difference that can be seen is my fringe

thats bout it

2010-04-10T06:00:00.000-07:00

DO YOU LIKE ME??
CAUSE I DO!!

2010-04-03T01:09:00.001-07:00

I don't know whether i want to be mad at person A or mad at person B !!

all this being in love is just causing unnecessary trouble
it's either i want to stop being in love or have a secure love

i keep looking forward to the next day hoping things will happen like how i wish for it to happen but when the next day come it just slips away!

anyways! i wana cut my hair at the same time i want to grow it!
what should i do??

cause currently my hair is just not what i want it to be!
so i gotta do something to it!

my life is just getting complicated day by day! ):
pfft -_-

2010-04-02T05:54:00.002-07:00

JUST BECAUSE I DON'T SHOW IT, DOESN'T MEAN I DON'T LIKE YOUU!

AHH! FINALLY things are getting better! we're communicating more and more now
i hope that after this stage, we will stead!

yay!

:D

that's all!
bye!

PS: feeling in love can rock during good times at the same time it sucks during bad times !!

2010-03-30T02:32:00.000-07:00

OK I'm glad that i passed my maths common test! PHEW! what a relief!

so far my studies are going alright. i hope it doesn't go down anymore!
I've passed all my common test so far this term and i hope that I'll pass my geog which i took yesterday too!

i just have one more week till i step down from council board
weeee! can't wait man!

there's like only very little more rehearsals days before the actual performance for the investiture & i don't know how to perform .

cause I've been busy going for training
i mean i rather prefer going for training than go for the rehearsals

i don't know i just can't wait to step down
than there's no one to threaten me about if i don't clip up my fringe I'll be out of council board!

it's not one or two times that any teachers have threatened me like that it's plenty of times!

AND I ABSOLUTELY HATE IT!!

-__-

can't wait for next weds! (=

2010-03-29T06:10:00.000-07:00

ITS'OBVIOUS THAT HE LIKES ME!
SO THAT'S WHAT I THINK
CAUSE THAT'S HOW HE ACTS

I HOPE HE GETS IT THAT I LIKE HIM TOO!

(this is practically how close we were something like that!)

WE WERE SO CLOSE THAT SHARMINI SAID I THINK YOU GUYS ARE ALREADY COUPLES UNOFFICIALLY!

HAHA

HOW I WISH IS OFFICIAL

WHEN HE'S NOT WITH ME HIS FRIENDS WILL COME AND ASK ME EH WHERE IS _____
LIKE AS IF I KNOW COME AND ASK ME FOR WHAT

LOL

I STILL FEEL PISSED OF THAT I DON'T SPEAK TO HIM THAT MUCH
I WANT TO BE ABLE TO BEHAVE WITH HIM LIKE HOW I BEHAVE WITH MY RETARDS!

WHEN WILL THAT TIME COME??

I HOPE ITS SOON!!

2010-03-05T20:35:00.000-08:00

is funny how you waste your breath talking to me

but it made me kinda of special really.

no matter how i want you so bad..

i think we're are just not meant to be!

why can't i just be myself with you

is like i've lost my brain and i have some computerized brain when you come

all i say is yes or no and smile!!

this really really pisses me off!!!

-_-

2010-02-01T04:02:00.000-08:00

today I'm a HAPPY BIRD!!

haha

MY PRINCE CHARMING IS BACK!! C:

AHHH! after many many many days

he's back!!

hehe

but whatever

I'm not going to crush on him again

later on when i don't see him again

i will feel sad

so I'll just treat him as my friend!

MY FRIEND IS BACK!

My GOOD friend(:

and you know the new eye candy i was talking about?

he smiled big big at me today!

hehehehehehe :DDD

this is getting exciting

OLD CRUSH vs NEW CRUSH

who will win!?

haha

I'm just crapping

BYEE!!

2010-01-28T06:16:00.000-08:00

today , was the 2nd day of my adam khoo's workshop!

so far it's been great an all
but today was the day they make us feel guilty and make us cry!

many many peeps cried
even the cool dudes!

but i was one of the few who didn't cry!
and i feel strong for that at the same time i wished i've cried
so that i would have the feeling of admit and i would like want to move on to be a better person

but me being a stm person when the instructor asked ask to think about bad decisions i had a lot but it was like simple ones

i was trying to thing of something that will make me cry
but NOO my brain won't give in the fact that i'm stm

so when everyone else were crying i was consoling
my tissue helped too! :DD

but the sharing session really made me have a damn heavy heart and even made my eyes watery and red!

i was really touched by it and it was really damn sad to hear out what the peeps have to say!

i really wonder what's going to happen tmr
are we going to cry again

am i going to cry?
hehe:DD

2010-01-26T02:29:00.000-08:00

ok today i'm going to talk about mua's academic "egg-celence"

i mean is seriously like an egg like a big 0

DD:

i mean like a studied super hard for the mt 'o' levels selection paper
and then i like didn't get selected for it

like WTH

i wouldn't have studied my heart for it if i knew that i wouldn't be selected ah.

STUPID!STUPID!STUPID!

anyways i'm glad that i passed my english commontest
but it's still not good enough.

hopefully i would do better than what i'm doing now
right now i'm only doing things "averagely"

i'm so glad that i understand what i'm doing in maths right now
rather than copying from the whiteboard and not knowing what on earth madam chang is talking

YAY!
hopefully i will do well in the upcoming maths commontest.

so stressed cause right after the adam khoo workshop which i'm having for 3 days starting for tmr all the tests are coming up!

1st up is maths commontest followed by ( not by order ) geography, chemistry and physics

EWW!
this sucks big time man!

off to mug
( haha like real )

:DDD

2010-01-25T05:43:00.001-08:00

HEYHEY!

I've got a new eye candy

HAHAHAHAHA

OK not the I'm a playgirl or anything

but my love story with the other guy doesn't seem to be happening so like I've said before I've given up and moved on

so today

this guy who is like uber hot and cute

was there

I've seen him before but i didn't really care about his existence that much

but today our eyes me ( literally)

and like he was really looking at me for quite a while

then he just went off

then i was like wth

no smiling or anything

but wait there's more!

when i was going back home

i passed by that guy and he was with his friend

then just when i passed him he said this girl very pretty ah to his friend

and his friend was like ya ( in a totally agreeing manner )

and i was like melting

AHHHH :DDD

can't wait for more things to carry on

which i don't think will

this type of things is just like a one day stuff right?

anyways

ciao!

2010-01-22T02:46:00.000-08:00

PRINCE CHARMING PLEASE DON"T GO!!!

the previous post when i said that i was in love but I'm sure the love will fade off its happened!!
"CRIES"

he did so many sweet things to me and he even somehow confessed that he likes me and now he's just gone as in there's no chance of me seeing him, i mean there might be but he has to come!!

arghh I'm so pissed off.
nvrm

i already waited for many many days!
i shall just forget bout him and move on with my life

i mean i don't even know if his name is _(HAHA I CAN'T MENTION IT)_____
and i don't even know what school is he studying or where he stays!

but he seems to know loads bout me!
i just wish that 1 thing he did knew bout me was my no.
so that we could still keep in contact

but nvrm I've moved on
no hope for hoping for smth which you can't get right
i mean you're just giving fat hopes to yourself and eventually is crushed!!

so i shall move on ( i know this is the 3rd time I'm saying this )
and I'm sure a better guy will come into my life!!

BYEEE HIM :DDD

2010-01-19T00:06:00.000-08:00

i'm sick !!

worst still i'm sick plus i'm having IT ( red light )

THIS REALLY SUCKS

hopefully when i wake up after my sleep which i'm gona take after blogging
i feel alright again

pfft!
fat hope!

Off to sleep
BYEE!!

:DD

2010-01-09T01:12:00.000-08:00

here's a video

this girls rock man \m/

MUST WACH THIS!!

MUST!! :DDD

2010-01-03T04:55:00.000-08:00

ARGHH!!

school starts tmr!!

i can't believe that holidays passed so fast!
I'm so lazy to wake up and go to school!

thinking of school right now already makes me tired!
hehe

i sound as if school really sucks
but noo

i just don't wana study yet
i want to enjoy!

the only part I'm looking forward to going to school is to see all my friends!!
:DD

this year is a very important year!
thinking if this already makes me dread school

never mind
there's no choice

D:

2010-01-02T05:07:00.000-08:00

I'M IN LOVE!!

yeah i'm in love!

feels nice to be in love cause its a feeling like the guy is there for you and stuff

and yeah i'm so happy to have a guy for me!

YAY!

haha but surely the love will die i mean liike of the guy fade away!!

:DD

i'm prepared!!

but for now

I'M IN LOVE THATS ALL I CAN SAY!

some pictures here:

2009-12-30T23:07:00.000-08:00

My parents are actually very nice!!

and they kinda only kinda do give me freedom
i really feel bad posting that my parents don't give me freedom on facebook
i feel like removing that statement..

actually the story behind me being pissed with them was cause they didn't let me go out with my friends today as they think I'm going out everyday which is SO not true!!
but it was very important for me to go out today as my friend maria came to Singapore and i only get to see her once a year!

so that's why i was pissed off
and i wrote it on facebook

but today
my dad was like you want to go out today ah very nicely
than i said uhuh
then he said okay but i must reach home early too

like how nice of him:DD

but in the end the plan was cancelled -_-

aiyohh i have to go through this much just to have the planned cancelled D:

okay that's it

byee!! :DD

2009-12-30T05:16:00.000-08:00

HEY HEY!

today was a great day for me

My friends and i went to Chinese Garden to picnic!!

it was very fun

and the scenery was great!

it was just so fun
then at one point we were taking picture and a bunch of Indian workers
were looking at us

like WTH

i immediately didn't want to be in the picture already

haha

anyways
when we entered Chinese garden already we were invited by those Indian workers who smiled at us

AIYOHH
this people have never seen girls ah

anyways
today time trial went well

i thought that i would suck today cause I've not been training for ages but
yay i did quite well!!

whoohoo!!

hopefully this sat's time trial would go well too!!

:DD

that's it
byee

2009-12-28T21:36:00.001-08:00

HEY!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MIE
AIYOH I 15 READY!!

Anyway, i don't have to wait till the end of the day to write down how my birthday was. cause i think its kinda already celebrate yesterday.

i went with my family and my aunties family to see AVATAR IN 3D
i was really excited for it but i wasn't really how i imagined to be

but the lead avatar was CUTE!! :DD

heheheheh

then we went shopping to buy my pressiee
which is of course my new RED CONVERSE!!

and then we wnt to pizza hut to eat

yummy!

at the end of the day my uncle gave me 50 bucks for m b'dae
i feel so bad accepting it

and the worst part is that i didn't even reject it 1st

arghh i really hate myself for that!!

but its okay its after all only my uncle
I'm sure he wouldn't mind
HOPEFULLY!!

anyway, today i was so suprised that many many of my friends wished me for my B'DAE(FB)
as its usually only my close friend

I'm still waiting for 2 of my close friends to wish me
SI HUI:D AND LAVANIA:D

hopefully they remember its my birthday
i think that lavania wanted to wish me yesterday itself
as she called me at 12 midnight

but as usual I'm a sleepy bird so i wouldn't answer calls wayy at night
hehehe

sorry lavania
i should call ya soon

okay today is going to be a busy day
okay not really

things I'm busy with:
I MUST I REALLY MUST RUN TODAY as tmr is my time trial
I'm really gonna die for that as i have not been training for 1 week!!
even if its just 1 week i feel as if I've not been training for ages D:
uber scared for my time trial tmr!! even if its just 1200m

next after i run i must take a quick show before meeting my sis
we're going cotton today!!
its her treat

hooray!

after that i can rest until my parents come home for the cake cutting part
then i can sleep

oh i CANNOT forget to call SHARMINI and LAVANIA too
as they gave me a miss call yesterday

so little time so much to do

being 15 is so stressful
haha
just kidding!!

woots!

okay then
goodbye age 14 and helloo age 15!

:DD

2009-12-28T07:15:00.000-08:00

FINALLY! i got my OWN pair of RED CONVERSE SHOES. HOW COOL IS THAT:DD
but the thing is that i feel that is too big for my feet

like wth

cause i went to try size 4.5 then i said it was too big

then she gave me size 3.5

then i felt that it was too big too

but i was too shy to ask for another smaller size again

and to ad on to my shyness the sales person also said that is its okay or to TIGHT!!

then i was like okay its official i shall just take this size and go home

but its okay its just slightly bigger than my feet so at least it might last for many many years haha

can't wait to wear my new RED shoes out!!

can't wait for this wed

okay then byeee

:DD

2009-12-26T22:02:00.000-08:00

hey hey!!

suddenly i remembered some retarded incident.
during christmas i went to my cousin's house for some occasion
so we had to wear traditional clothes.

then while we were walking a group of malay guys( i assum their mats)
kept doing "weet, weet" thingy at me and my sis

omg it was super annoying
i was trying my best not to turn and look
luckly i didn't

thats not all to add on to that they
wished us selemat hari raya
like WTH?

then they said eh eh sorry merry christmas

haha PIASEH

that was damn funny!!

luckly we caught a taxi very quickly

PHEW!!

okay i found this very funny video on youtube
its FT Island acting as the cast i BOF

ENJOY:

2009-12-26T04:05:00.000-08:00

HEY HEY!!

i'm very proud of myself :DD

cause the blogskin turned out superb
and guess what.
i did most of it myself
only the skelton of the blogskin is done by someone else

but i edited it and made is nicer!!
yayy:D

okay uber stressed out right now
cause my comm is supposed to teach the councillors and the OBS member a dance
that we can't even remeber

OH NO!!

we are dead meat!!

SOMEBODY HELP ME DD:

2009-12-25T05:55:00.001-08:00

I'M SUPERMAN PISSED!!

why can't my parents give me freedom to go out with my friends.

and by parents i mean my dad

i haven't really tried asking my mum as i'm afraid
but i'm sure the answer will be the same bloody NO!!

this really stinks big time

stinks! stinks! super STINKOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!

fishcake man!

why can't i go out!!!

is not as if i'm going out everyday
whats the point of staying at home too

i'll be just there sitting in the computer or doing house chores
( okay there will be my family to talk too)

but still...

URGHHHH!

this is super annoyingDDD:

BOO HOO HOO MERRY CHRISTMAS DD:

2009-12-01T22:29:00.000-08:00

hey hey!! (:

i'm not back to blogging yet.

just want to let out smth

went to bugis yesterday

had loads of funn

and had best buys!! (:

things i wanted to get:

vest

long tee(white)

cardigan(black)

blazer

long tank top

bohemian dress

things i bought:

VEST
CARDIGAN(BLACK)

AND A VERY CUTE DRESS

me like!! :DDD

things i didn't get:

blazer

long tank top

long tee

bohemian dress

its okay cause me and my sis plan to go bugis this sunday

so i can get what i want soon

can't wait:DDD

2009-05-02T05:23:00.000-07:00

hellooo

today, i feel sad!

there are three things that made me sad today.

1) i wasted my Thursday and Friday(labour day(: ) all away by SLACKING!!!
SLACK is a word that is forever and always in my dictionary. you see even now instead of studying for my mye i am slacking over here chucking away my studies. i have to think up of a diabolic plan to get rid of the slack word from my dic!... well at least for now!!

2) today, at least i started to rack up on my chemistry. but the think is that that i think i was less dumber last time and I've become more dumb now. as in when i was doing all my past worksheets for chemistry, the qns that i got correct the last time i can't do it now and of course the qns that were wrong i still got it wrong. and of course if you guys are wondering which i think not its not all the qns i got wrong! if it was i would be an ALIEN!!

3) my friends did not invite me to study with them today!
i mean seriously. today khamrun called me asking about social studies and stuff like that through si hui's phone,so i knew that she was with her as i heard that they did want to study together. but i did ask to confirm again and the she told me yep and sharmini is also there. then i was like thinking where was i??? then khamrun asked me just then if i wanted to come. then when i said no she said that she knew it that i would say no that's why they did not call me in the first place. but of course who wouldn't say no if you say in the last minute and you haven't ask your parents and prepared or gotten ready yet? this really hurt me loads and i am sure it would hurt others if the same thing happened to them. i mean the thing is that i really don't mind them hanging out as we have formed other groups of threes and hanged out too but the thing is that we will ask the person who couldn't make it if she could come too...

like for example that time i wanted to got to JP and then me, sharm and khamrun could make it and we knew that si hui can't. but still we did ask her if she could. at least i think that is wayyy better that way! at least you know whats happening.

but i really at least appreciated that they called to invite me at least today! thank you(:

its okay its just time to FORGIVE AND FORGET BAD MEMORIES and move on to happie ones!!

as my self moto says KEEP SMILING ALWAYS!!!(:

2009-04-09T22:06:00.000-07:00

helloo Friday!!

after a long time today is the first Friday that i work up at 10am instead of 5.45am

"sighs"

it is certainly a GOOD FRIDAY for miee

lols

(:

okays

since is a good Friday
i wan2 share with you guys a joke!!!
you noe to make you guys laugh

so joke time!!(:
One patient came in and said, 'Doctor, I have a serious memory problem.
'The doctor asked, 'When did it start?'
The man replied, When did what start?'

byeee(:

2009-04-09T05:58:00.000-07:00

hello.helloo(:

okay today the only interesting thing that happened was my 2.4 run
okaayy nothing is really interesting actuallie
is just that i improved in my 2.4 timing by around 40secs
yayy(:

okay lets recap on yesterday as nothing interesting really happened today(am i missing smth?)

we had our councillor investiture
and my dear seniors all graduated
and now i can't believe it that i am the senior
as in normally i will be the one asking my seniors qns
but now my juniors(: are asking me things
it feels weird at the same time the feeling is quite nice and rewarding somehow
i don't know lah whats wrong with miee

i also had my first yog dance practice
at first when i saw the steps i thought that we could do better
but when i learnt the steps
damn i think that it ROCKED!(:
hopefully i danced well too

okay next was the captains' ball match
i was quite disappointed as i did not get to play

anyways the score was that we had a draw with class 3/8 with a score of 1-1
and with i don't know what class we lose to 1-0

anyways we will be vs with 3/7 soon
3/6 vs 3/7
and i am playing(:

okay i am scared that i would let my team down
but hopefully not
lols

next a group of us planned the class cheer for games day
and i had loads of funn(:

okay
okay
time to go
am i forgetting someone??
a persons name which starts with J and ends with N??

okay.okay
only the person who i "forgot" would understand what i am saying

so
byee for now!

(:

2009-04-05T03:56:00.000-07:00

GEOGRAPHY?? whats that??

i mean seriously
its either i am not focusing or its just i can't get the detail in my head
i can't remember anything at all

i am confirm going to flop tomorrow's common test
i am already prepared so i don't really care what my results will be

its okay
perhaps only perhaps! i can do way better in geog at mid year
lols

i think that will never happen
(:

anyways
i am really distracted
i think i want to chuck aside studies for now

time to surf
(:

byeee

2009-04-03T19:57:00.000-07:00

HELLOOO BLOGGING!!! again!

why?? why can't i stick to blogging all the time.i mean i have things happening everyday to talk about so why can't i just blog!!

Anyways i am starting back blogging because my retarded partner asked me to update my blog by at least saying hi!

So... HELLOO JACQUELYN

LOLS

anyways today i am supposed to go to school and yet i didn't!!!
i am feeling damn guilty about it!! ._.

ROARRRR!!

okay then time to go
byeee(:

2009-01-09T20:47:00.000-08:00

helloooo
everyone
i am back to blogging

i don't know whats wrong with me but i cannot stick to one thing for very long
like blogging

its like for a period of time i won't blog then suddenly i will come back to blogging and say hellooo everyone i am back to blogging

anyways i am sec 3 now
wohooo!!!

i can bully the juniors now!
okay!okay!

they still bully mieee

heyy!
but i at least can bully one

yayyy!!!

okay
gtg
BYEEEE!!!
(:

2008-11-28T16:40:00.001-08:00

going on vacation today
wohooo

anyways i took this quiz
and i got this results

You Are a Good Friend Because You're Fun

You are energetic, amusing, and always up for a good time.
Optimistic and genuinely happy, you help people see the sunny side of life.

And you're always up for a party... no matter how big or small.
You're usually the first one to celebrate a friend's success.

Anyone who's interesting or fun is welcome in you circle of friends.
You're not the type of person to exclude or make fun of someone who's a little different.

Your friends need you most when: They're down or depressed

You really can't be friends with: Anyone who's stuck up or chronically unhappy

Your friendship quote: "It is one of the blessings of old friends that you can afford to be stupid with them."

What Makes You a Good Friend?

okays byeee
off to enjoy myself
(:

2008-11-26T22:52:00.000-08:00

hellooo

was verie free yesterday
yet i don't know whats wrong with me that i didn't blog yesterday
anyways yesterday i watched a movie called Angus thongs and perfect snogging

i think that the movie was verie nice
but a little gross
haha

anyways my friend just came back from her country yesterday
and we were supposed to conference talk at night
so i was like waiting for their calls
but it was taking very long
that i went to sleep

hehe
i think i wasn't at all being a good friend
so SORRIEE!!!

hoping to hang out soon
it is soo boring at homee

my holiday is all bout going to school and going back home
and that is like so superman boring
haha

anyways lucky for miee
that i am going on a holiday to Malaysia this saturday

wohooo
can't wait!!

okies
that's bout it
byeee!!
(:

2008-11-24T22:17:00.000-08:00

okay
was reading through some of the post in my blog
and i realized that there was so many mistakes in my English

haha
lazy to change it
its okay
hopefully this post its okay

lalalala
okay
byeee!!!
(:

CAN SOMEBODY PLEASE TAG MIEEE
I AM DESPERATE!!!

hahahahaha
okays
now officially
byeee!!
(:

2008-11-24T05:10:00.000-08:00

hellooo

i am officially i magician
haha
okay not quite

but

at least i learnt how to do three card magic tricks
wohooo
i also can show you some magic elisha(if you are reading this)

haha
just kidding
but at least i can do the tricks

can't wait to show it to my friends

yayy
okay
gtg now
byeee(:
!!!

2008-11-22T20:23:00.000-08:00

hello

back from pahang...YAYY!!!
the trip was very fun but is just that i was homesick
haha
i get homesick in every camp and i just don't know why

okay details on what happened>>

FIRST DAY(ON THE TRAIN):All we did was talk,eat and sleep.But the most funny part was that the were two gays and then one of them was telling the other "girl" that she was going to get off the next stop in and weird and angry tone.So that made some of us laugh and the two just stared at us and walked away.Then one of my friend when to the place where we can buy food and stuff and the two gays were there.One of the "girl" took off her slipper and said and wanted to hit my friend.But before "she" could hit him, he ran away!!!

SECOND DAY(IN THE HOTEL):We reach the destination at around 2am so we had to stay in a "motelish" looking hotel until 8am.so when my group opened the room we were welcomed by cockroaches.We found two on the table one in the toilet and one nymph on the floor.One of my friend managed to chase away then nymph and the other cockroaches hid behind the cupboard.we all slept on the same bed together being cramped up so that nothing will enter the bed.At first we were all having a physcological feeling that there were cockroaches climbing on us and stuff like that but as time goes by we just slept and woke up to get ready for the day!!

SECOND DAY(IN THE CAMP SITE):There were loads of leeches in the camp site.Most of my friends were worried about the sucking them but i was not really that worried until during the bathing time when one of my friend found out that there was a leech near her hips and i was scared that it will be somewhere inside me when i was bathing.But luckily during the whole trip not even one leech bit me.I was vey exciting and not a single bit scared for the abseiling but when i got up there and when i was tuck up there my legs were shaking like hell.But luckily my friends and teachers gave me help by instructing me and phew finally i got down.Caving was very funn!! Although i always fall down as it was slippery i was happy to have cuts i love having scars i thing it is very cool to have scars!! YEP i know i an weird to like scars.My friends told me that too in the camp!!

THIRD DAY(WHITE WATER RAFTING):During the rafting i fell down the water and i was like drowning then the instructor saved me !! And after that now that i think about i think i fell in love with the instructor!! GET OVER IT FARHANAAA!!!(:So when i was drowning in the water i lost my rafting stick.so after thatr during whole journey of rafting i just have to sit and let the others raft!!! QUITE FUNN TOO!!!(:

FOURTH DAY(LAST DAY):I was very happy that it was the day to go home but i am even more happier now that i am at home!!As i said i WAS homesick.Anyways during the last day we had to do waterfall abseiling(canyoning) and when we reached there i was scared because when i saw the others doing it and they slipped at one point atleast as it was slippery except for some.So i was scared that i will slip and fall as even the normal abseiling i could'nt do it.But i was very happy with my performance as i did not even slip and fall at any point!!YAYY i am one of them!!

okay
hope you guys read my long blog
byee!
(:

2008-11-18T18:30:00.000-08:00

hellooo

back to blogging
haha!!

FINALLYY!!
(:

i have to go to a camp today to PAHANG!!
confirm i will be HOMESICK!!!

but i think that it will be very fun...
okays

will update back after the camp...
need to do some last minute packing..

see ya!
BYEEE!!!
(:

2007-10-31T03:43:00.000-07:00

happy Halloween everyone!

ha ha to bad i never go trick a treating today.... so sad!
never earn and sweets and chocolates=(

anyways you can give me a treat by tagging me :P
HE HE!

anyways this is a short video of Halloween that i uploaded

hope is nice !

i got to go now ... coz is time to celebrate Halloween by ....

watching Disney channel! he he!...

MUHAHAHA!

ciao.

2007-10-29T23:02:00.000-07:00

hello.

i have not been blogging for a very long ...
yesterday was very fun!

i went to lot one with my primary school bestiess!
it was very fun !

anyways i took this quiz in blogthings and i got this results:

You are a Buff Girl!
You've got a boomin' body and a fearless spirit.
Most guys have trouble keeping up with your energy and fitness level.
Competitve and fun loving, you're up for almost anything.
Make sure you pick a guy who doesn't mind getting beaten by a girl!
http://www.blogthings.com/whatkindofgirlareyouquiz/">What Kind of Girl Are You?

today i went to school coz i thought i was supposed to but actually there was no lessons today
coz it was actually supposed to be tomorrow...

gave the pressie that i bought for my friends
felt sad that one of them did not like it

but its ok!

plan on going east coast park on 27th December with all my friends!

can't wait!

ciao!

2007-10-20T03:25:00.000-07:00
hello !

YAY! 3 hours added in my CIP ! i really wish to get my NY AA bronze.
NPCC was very fun today ... we got to collect the newspapers and all the other recyclable materials.

i was satisfied with my group members ... did not feel left out ! FRIENDLY people! hehe=)
i just have this slight feeling that the group i was in collected the most items...thanks to some houses who sacrified alot of items to help us! THANK YOU!

on side of me is satisfied with my results but the other half is NOT!
hopefully i still stand a chance to go to express next year!!! but maybe not!

i feel kind of sad for some of my friends as thy failed some of their subjects and they even cried!
it really hurts me to see someone cry!!! but i did not know how to cheer them up!!!!!

boy! some of my classmates even find it hard to reach the criteria to be promoted from secondary one to two!

the criteria for secondary two's criteria is even harder to achieve!

hopefully i will be able to succeed and achieve my goal FOREVER!

CIAO!

2007-10-15T01:55:00.000-07:00
hello guys!!!

I KNOW ITS LIKE A LITTLE LATE TO SAY THIS BUT

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI TO ALL MY MUSLIM FRIENDS!

ANYWAYS YESTERDAY WAS A VERY NICE DAY

All my aunties came over to my house for the second day of raya and then we were all like watching this this idol contest grand finals ( vasantham star) and most of them were supporting the contestant whom i supported!!! but my sister and my mom were the only ones who supported THE PERSON WHO CAME IN LAST for the grand finals ( 3rd runner up) !!!

and i was so happy that the person i supported (EBI) won!
and my whole house was very noisy suddenly with all the whoohoos and the hahahaz!!!

beside that , all my cute LITTLE cousins came too!!!!!!!!!

aww !!!!! they were so adorable wearing their raya clothes!!!!!!!
there was this one cousin of mine who always cries whenever i carried him( cause he only likes tall people)

but surprisingly yesterday he was quite happy when i carried him!!! yay!!!!

OK gtg now

CIAO!

2007-10-10T18:49:00.000-07:00
hello!!!!!!! so happy to blog again!!!!!!! WHOOHOOO!!! exam is over!! time to enjoy....
but the doom would be when the results comes out...but till then i can just enjoy=)

i think i did not do dat well for my end of year examination...but i will keep my fingers crossed!!!

but i am enjoying to fast!!!! i still have my IT exam & my CDP exam left...but WHO CARES!!!
they are not that important!!!!!!

my horoscope for today says that:
Flattery is likely to get me further than
expected but only for a while.i must resist
temptation to overuse what seems to work!

WOW!!!!!!!!!! i think i understand what it means but hehe
unfortunately i don't!!!!!!!!! nvrm if i found the meaning out right i
would update it!!!!!!hehe

ciao!

2007-08-29T02:29:00.000-07:00
hello guys

just when yesterday was a good day today was such such a bad day!

it all started in my mother tongue class
the teacher started asking who was the one who spread the rumors about her crying

i felt a little guilty because i was also one of them who spread the rumores
but it was not relating to crying

i just told one of my friends that she looked like she was about to cry
because she was very stressed out with the class

i thought my friend could be trusted

BUT NO

she had to tell all her other friends this news
and it all spreads in the wrong way!

if my teacher is reading this i just wanna say I'm sorry
even though its just partially my fault.

next after school
my friends were all discussing about my other friends b'dae
each of the three friends there were given a role to play
to her party...

EXCEPT FOR ME!!!!!

imagine how i felt being left out...
then i ask one of my friends what about my part to play
after all she is my good friend too

AND YOU KNOW WAD SHE REPLIED BACK???!!!!

she just said
oh you just eat the cake La

EAT THE CAKE
that's all i must do ...

AGGGRRR!!!!!!!

next in the bus

we were like sitting each on one separate to sitter chair
than one of my friends asks all the rest to come sit with her st the back sit

EXCEPT FOR ME!!!!

i was just waiting quietly there waiting if they would call me
BUT NO!

nope!not even one person actually called me!

then when i step out of the bus
one friend started calling me from the back

i just pretended not to hear her
finally she catches up with me

and she was like whats the matter with you
and i was quiet

and she was like are you angry with me

OF COURSE I'M ANGRY AND HURT TOO!!!
but i did not say anything

then later she said bye as she needed to buy her lunch

then i too left

is it me who have changed or is it mi friends
anyways that's all

ciao!

2007-08-29T02:26:00.000-07:00
hello guys

recap on what happened yesterday

yesterday was a very good day for me

relationship with friends : very good

during npcc we had photo taking
i think i smiled like shit

we had to take the total Defence test again
i have already passed
but gotta take it once more

hopefully i pass
and all my other cadets and squad mates passes

that's all

ciao!

2007-08-27T01:59:00.000-07:00
hello guys..

today P.E lesson was a bit embarrassing during the warm up session

during the ten tug jump, i did not jump that high!

it is not because i am not interested or something...is just that my ability to jump is just like that...

and my P.E teacher caught me...and after the warm up session i had to stand in front of my class and do the tug jump in front of them

but luckily my teacher let me off for once
but he still humiliated me by exaggerating what i did

but after that he went of to supervise the people who failed their NAFA test.
and the people who passed could play badminton...

badminton was fun

me and Mei Jia started of a bit lousy
but when we continued we were like experts..

SERIOUSLY!!!!!

then me and Mei Jia were a team and we played with Farris and Shamirul who were another team.
i don't know if i played well or i just made a fool out of myself

but it was FUN

overall i enjoined my P.E except for the warm up part

that's all

ciao

2007-08-25T01:59:00.000-07:00
hello

nothing much happened today
still thinking in what to do for my service learning

anyways...

i can't believe I'm saying this but...

i love the song you are the music in me by Vanessa and zac
the main reason i love this song because i always imagine me and my romeo singing the song together...

i almost have memorised the whole song

yah that's about it

ciao!

2007-08-23T02:35:00.000-07:00
yah i found my harry potter book

whoo i'm soo lucky..

LIKE HOW I WISH!!!

i had no luck in finding the book

oh bad luck

aniways i got the money to buy back the book

PHEW!!!

aniways today in class was kind of good

one of my classmates started like paring people up and like telling that you are compatible with him and stuff like that

he is really funny

i begged some of my classmates to treat me like their sister

no one said yes

=(

well at least one of my classmate said yes

in service learning was quite fun

i am like one of the leader for the service learning

YEAH I"M A WOMEN!!!

ps:that line will be only "welly"understood for some people

i have no idea on what to do for the service learning thing!!!

i asked some of my friends to give me some ideas but they too did not have any idea

in the bus i was telling one of my friend something

and she was like a statue...not even responding to me

it was like i was talking to the wall

my sister was very kind enough to lend me some money to add up to buy the book

2007-08-22T02:25:00.000-07:00
hello guys

today is a very bad day for me

i brought the latest harry potter book to school the deadly hallows or something like that which i lend for my friend and i actually lost it...can you believe it ...I LOST IT!!!

how RESPONSIBLE of me!!!!!

it is like a book which costs like over 50 bucks and i actually lost ot...it does not even belolng to me

i am seriously dead
so sway ah

i don't know what to do!!!!!!!

?????????!

hopefully tomorrow when i go ask the general office people about the book...they will say that oh yeah we got the book yesterday!!!!hopefully i get it back tomorrow!!

please tomorrow..be a better day and give me back the harry potter book!!!!

really worried
really sad
really scared
really anxious
really nervous
REALLY WANT THE BOOK BACK TOMORROW!!!!

2007-08-21T04:49:00.000-07:00
hello

things were much better today!!

today was photo taking
i think i smiled like shit!!!!!

i can't believe he stand up for me wheni was bullied

so happy for my bro!!!!he found he juliet finally !!!!=p

whoo from fail i got a pass for my mother tongue(bad still bad lar ofcourse)
whoohooo A1 for my english oral presentation

nothing much to blog today

ciao

2007-08-20T02:44:00.000-07:00

hello

depressed

friends!!!!!resuts!!!!!friends!!!!!!!

i failed my science ...whoohoo!!!!!

ouh-puh-lease!!!!!!!!!

did'nt really hang out with my friends today

did'nt talk to my bro at all today

ps: bro refers to my schoolmate but i treat him like a bro and he treats me like his sis

today was not a good day

aniways tomorrow is photo taking

during fun photo i dunno which friend i am going ot stand with!!!!!!!!!!

hmmmmm....that's about it

no mood to blog'

2007-08-18T22:51:00.000-07:00
Your Personality Is
Idealist (NF)
You are a passionate, caring, and unique person.You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals.
You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily.Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings.
You seek out other empathetic people to befriend.Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships.
In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily.
At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career.
With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone.
As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style.
On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.
http://www.blogthings.com/threequestionpersonalitytest/">The Three Question Personality Test

i took my personality test and i got idealist (NF)

ofcourse NF because it is my nAME....